Ok, I just had a big revelation and wanted to share it. I started this blog back in October I think by talking about how this quote by Elisabeth Elliot has been a source of meditation for me- "Let us beware of rebellion against the Lord. Circumstances are of his choosing, because He wants to bless us, to lead us (even through the wilderness) out of Egypt, that is, out of ourselves. Settle the complaint with God and it will settle other things. Be offended with God, and you will be offended with everyone who crosses your path." It's actually on a little bulletin board by my sink and I look at it a million times a day. I just read it again and I realized how I cannot rebel against the path God has chosen for me. If I want to keep in step with His Spirit and He takes me through some ugly places in order to lead me out of myself, then so be it. I want to follow Him. I have spent some time recently being offended by where He has taken me and it has certainly had a negative impact on the world around me. I was so wrong. All the ugliness that may exist in life on the path that I may be travelling is not an excuse for me to be angry, bitter, or rebellious. I trust God. I trust that He knows the end of this road. I can rejoice in that! I don't have to just accept it, but I can really live with rejoicing. Wow. Big thoughts....